In the morning, a gentleman whom I only knew from the media and as a speaker at various events knocks at my door. He was the Lord in the true sense of the word… He said he had come to talk a little. That he saw me several times when I walked around their offices, but he never asked me anything, he just listened to what I was doing… Now he thinks we are ready for each other…
He said that until recently he felt perfect and happy. He felt that he was living a full life. He has a wife, family, business, career, friends… He lacked for nothing. A month ago, he turned 55 years old. Somehow he felt that he and his wife were beginning to age. He was proud to be with someone he was still attracted to and he worshipped her, whatever she felt. He was a little panicky about going all the way to the end, but at the same time he was lucky to have spent these 55 years happily and contentedly. When he looks back, he sees no sadness or dissatisfaction in his life… Until recently.
This feeling of impermanence has somehow put him on his left leg, which he could not explain… The children are grown up and independent, otherwise they have to work with their wife for at least five years and then spend the rest of their lives at a steady pace. You see, travel and friends are there… but the timeline of his life is always shorter. He wondered how he could prolong this, even though he knew it would not work. But still, at least this feeling that it would be something eternal, he sought… Otherwise, he wrote many books, directed… …that will leave him written forever, but he was looking for an inner feeling…
Searching for this feeling and thinking, he saw this eternity in one of his students defending her graduation certificate, where he was the chairman of the commission… After defending the diploma, he offered her a job in his office. Of course, the invitation was not entirely sincere in his intention to wish her a better business future… Above all, he wanted to experience that feeling of eternity… When she came for an interview the next day, they chatted for more than 10 hours, time flew by. In the end, he invited her on a business trip. So they spent ten wonderful days together, glued to each other. She fell in love with authority and the Savior, and he fell in love with this feeling of eternity. carefree youth. That feeling that nothing will ever end… Suddenly he had the feeling that he would live three times longer than he had lived 20 years. I watch him explain to me why he explains it to me now.
Good, because I am a psychotherapist, he just fell in love, and what… Considering that he has mastered everything, I do not know if I am the right title naslov, but I kept listening to him and I thought to myself: “If only I were so lucky to be with a woman for the rest of my life…” You know, “he says,” “I am not in a quandary about leaving a woman and everything. It’s perfectly clear to me that in this case I’d probably get a year or two in prison, and then hell would await me for the rest of my life.
I knew the feeling and saw that it can be very beautiful, but I will stay with my wife, because there is nothing missing and I am still attracted to her. It annoys me because I do not know how to hold on to this feeling or how to outgrow it. Now that I know him, I will always get involved in other relationships. These 14 days were wonderful, but the inner peace I had for 55 years cannot be compared to that.
I will have regained this inner peace, but there is obviously something inside me that is causing me a restlessness that I have not known until now. You may not give me an answer either, but I think you can tell me in which direction to think… “
Yes, indeed, my uncle gave me a difficult task, because I could learn from him and not he from me. But nevertheless, I accept this as a challenge and delve deeper into the matter. After talking about his childhood I realized that he had never dreamed. What he imagined, he achieved or got, even if he was not spoiled. He never had imaginary dreams, he lived a very real life. Even in anticipation he never imagined great and unattainable things. In fact, this happened to him for the first time when he started to think about eternal life.
“We are finished for the moment”, I told him and added: “I will meet you at 11 pm on Kalemegdan where the confluence can be seen. He looked at me a little strangely, but nodded wordlessly.
It was a clear night. I could not overlook his physique as he came towards me. “I am here, as you wanted me to be. I”m really interested in what you studied. “
“Well, yeah, I have not really studied anything. I have found that you have never been spontaneous in your life. You always had everything carefully planned and very militarily organized. But your soul almost died in the process. You never let yourself breathe. That is why we came here now, so spontaneously, without a plan. “
After a short pause for thought I pointed to the sky: “Do you see these stars? Now that we are looking at them, they may no longer be there. But we see them anyway, because only their shadow comes to us, their memory, the story. What you have already created and what people will talk about you long after your death. They are like the stars. The stars do not carry out anything planned, everything happens only within the limits of some laws of nature. Processes happen when things are ripe for them. Our lives are similar. Everything can take place in a natural way and happen when it is ripe for it. Or, as they say, when it’s time. So if you still want to have the same feeling, every day, then unbutton your tie and start to recapture your wife. Have a picnic in the country, be surprised, go to the movies, bring her a flower, have a date… It’s time to live.
He laughed at me and pulled two bottles of beer out of his pocket. “Do you drink Niksic?” He gave me a beer. “You know, on the way here I thought about what you just told me, so you confirmed everything…”
And so we waited for morning on the wall, went to Mala Sava have morning coffee… Like sometimes on college days.
